93

I think I’m reluctant to trust the Lord fully.  There is a huge part of me that wants to do a full soul jump into his arms… and there is a stubborn corner in my life that won’t let me. 

When life gets crazy, that’s when I realize how reliant upon myself I still am.  When it feels like trouble has risen up and wave upon wave of difficulty is pounding me, I don’t want to trust God.  I want to either curl up my body, retreat into myself and trust my own defensive skills— or —- I want to curl up my fists, advance into the foray and trust my own offensive skills.

But trust God?  I’m still not sure I quite know what that fully means.

The silly thing about this struggle to trust is that I know deep down in my soul that God is absolutely trustworthy… and not just because his intension is good… but also because he is able to be trusted… always able.  When the pressures of life start to pound against us, when the torrent of storms rise up and thunder against us, God is still firmly there, still standing, still able to be trusted.  Nothing shakes God.

The Psalms indicate this.  They are full of real people voicing the struggle to trust in God.  And occasionally, they are anchored in the reminder that God is able to be trusted…even as the storms rise up.  Psalm 93 is an example of this… and came as a great reminder of the Lord’s endless power and majesty and friendship to me this week.

May the Lord keep nudging me to trust him.  Amen.

Psalm 93

Yahweh reigns, he is robed in majesty;
Yahweh is robed in majesty and is armed with strength.
The world is firmly established;
it cannot be moved.
Your throne was established long ago;
you are from all eternity.

The seas have lifted up, O Yahweh,
the seas have lifted up their voice;
the seas have lifted up their pounding waves.

Mightier than the thunder of the great waters,
mightier than the breakers of the sea-
the Lord on high is mighty.

Your statutes stand firm;
holiness adorns your house
for endless days, O Yahweh.